I have never forgotten this line, quoted by a wife during an appearance on Oprah. Her husband was always too tired to make love, and he said the line above - "Oh, Baby, I'm Sooooo tired" in answer to her advances.
I could use that line every day now - and not in response to anything specific. All last year, prior to my heart surgery, I was exhausted all the time. I truly thought that once I had the surgery, that would go away. But I've had no such luck. I am somewhat better than I was last year, but not as good as I'd like.
This morning I took my car in for inspection. I had to get up earlier than usual. Afterward, I ran some errands and then met two old friends for lunch. After lunch, I went to three stores, where I attempted to minimize my walking and the time spent in each. By the time I finished shopping, I could barely hobble back to the car I was so tired.
There are lots of things I need to do; clean the garage, my taxes, organizing papers and photos, cleaning closets and kitchen cabinets. I cannot forsee a time in the near future when these might be accomplished. It is disheartening, to say the least. My cardiologist gave me a good report last week - he said I am progressing well. I just wish that progression included more energy. I have to take a nap every day, especially after cardiac rehab, and on other days if I have to go shopping.
It seems that all I do is bitch nowadays when I write a post. I do have quite a bit to be grateful for: my car passed inspection, I had a good lunch with two old blog friends and my family visited me this past weekend. I hope that my energy level increases soon.